Today’s Theresa’s Tuesday is inspired by a movie about courage. The movie was about having the courage to be a father. But, I thought about courage in the rest of our lives. The courage to try something new, the courage to say no to the wrong things and yes to the right ones, or the courage to change.
It was June of 1991 and I didn’t realize at the time that what I had chosen to do was brave. I had been divorced for a year, but during that year, I decided to return to school to finish my degree. Joan’s interview from yesterday reminded me of my journey back to school. I had two very young children, ages three and five. I packed up a U-Haul, hitched the car to the back, and drove off to new adventures. I wasn’t even sure if I would have help unloading as I was headed for somewhere with no friends or family. I just knew this was something I wanted to do.
Three years later, I had my degree in hand. The years flew by after that and life didn’t go as planned. Even though I had the courage to do new things and take care of whatever life threw at me, I didn’t have the courage to do one thing. I lacked courage in being me. I always felt I was an odd duck. I felt out of place and eventually told myself to just fade into the background. To put my creativity away, to hide everything because I didn’t think it would be received as a gift to others, but rather that I was just being annoying again.
A few months ago, I decided to resurrect Afternoon Social. I bought the domain name several years ago, but didn’t know what to do with it. I was a bit shocked that the name wasn’t taken. I bought it then wondered what to do. The best thing I did was pray. Slowly, step by step, God is taking me on a journey to develop this. I’m not sure what it may look like in five or ten years, but He does. It has been more than just building a business for extra income. It has been a journey to discovering me. I’m surprised at the content I am developing and the ideas that I have. I’m realizing that even though I was hiding myself, God was nudging me to develop skills that I can now use for Afternoon Social. To put myself out there regardless of how I feel that I look or sound is a struggle but just as I got through those three years of school, I can do this too.
God reminded me this week about Noah. Everyone thought he was crazy. However, he had faith in God and listened to all of the instructions he was given to build the ark. He built it exactly the way God told him to and it survived the flood.
Is there a piece of you that you are hiding? Are you afraid that someone will think less of you? Are you ready to step out in courage in 2021 to build the “ark” that God is telling you to build? Have you asked Him what he wants you to build?